Bellie Girl & Sweet Pea
Lesson: See the world the way your dog does. Mirror their love, excitement, and ability to forgive even the worst of offenses.
Since yesterday was National Puppy Day, I thought I'd jump back into posting with a little tribute to my girls. They have been the lights of our lives and the pure joy they've brought to our hearts is an immeasurable gift for which we are grateful every day.
I am convinced we were put here to be in each other's lives. I don't exactly remember the moment I saw you, but I do remember how my heart felt. You were placed in my lap and my heart burst open with all the love it had. You were mine, and I was yours.
It makes me so sad that you've been ours for seven years and are still scared of so many things. You're getting braver all the time and I know the transition into RV life has been pretty hard on you. The day you settled in and snuggled up on my lap for a nap as we were driving was one of my happiest days; it meant you were comfy in this new adventure we've embarked on. I hope our latest battle, the a/c blowers, will be just one more fear that your strong little self will overcome.
Thank you for loving me every single second of every single day. Thank you for snuggling with me as I sing you our song. Thank you for filling a void I didn't really understand was there until recently. Some people don't understand how much love you can feel towards a dog, and I can't ever seem to find the words to say how much I love you my tan puppy. You have changed me, you have changed my life. You alone have taught me how big I can love. Your furrowed brow and funny ways fill my heart to the absolute brim.
My favorite parts of our days are when I'm woken up to your tail thumping on the floor and that little whine of, "mama, can I please come on the bed and snuggle with you just for a little bit to start my day?". I love when I get to see you run around freely, you're so fast! At the end of the night when we have our quiet time on your bed before we go to sleep ends my day with such peace. "Goodnight Sweet Pea, you're the best puppy in the whole world. I love you so much and I'm so glad I get to be your mama."
Sweet Bellie Girl,
This picture breaks my heart because it reminds me of how much I miss you. You were Blair's first girl, but when I came into the picture you welcomed me with such open arms. I have so many favorites in our time together - the way you would jump up on the couch to snuggle with me when you're dad wasn't home, because it wasn't allowed when he was (hehe we were so sneeky!). I loved watching you hop around when you got really excited, and I miss the times you would just lay, and lay, and lay in the front yard, so stubborn when you weren't ready to come inside. The way you would 'taste' and then turn your nose up at any fruit or veggie we tried to give you, running my hands through your fuzziness, your total love of sticks no matter how big or small, and watching you swim...you could have done that for hours.
You were so kind, sweet, gentle, I think you secretly really loved Leila even if you didn't always show it. You were such a good teacher to her and I know she misses you too.
Bellie, the day we had to say good-bye to you was the worst day of my life. I will never forget our last night together when your dad slept on the floor with you and the sounds of your soft snores filled my ears...the nights still seem so quiet without those snores. I'm so thankful we were all able to be at home, in our own space, for those last moments with you. My heart has never hurt like it hurt in that moment and I hope you know how much we loved you. There was the most beautiful sunrise the next morning and, in my heart, I could feel it was you letting us know you're ok. Thank you for all the beautiful sunrises you've given us since then Bella, we will love you for always.